The human body has 7 trillion nerves and some people manage to get on every single fucking one of them
Never worry about numbers. Help one person at a time, and always start with the person nearest you.
Sometimes I find myself living in the past. Other times I’m daydreaming about the future. But then it slaps me in the face and I realize that I have been spending enough time living in the present.
Wow. Its been awhile since I’ve thought this hard. I remember just singing in the shower and coming up with this crazy line, free-styling, dropping “one-of-a-kind-flows” and having the most fun I’ve had in awhile. I just kept screaming “what you be doing man? I’m singing in da shower while you just be tripping for powah….” But I guess that’s besides the point. Its so cliche but sometimes its the most cliche things that are the most blatantly interesting…and I guess truthful. I remember talking with someone yesterday; we somehow got to the topic of learning from our mistakes and were like…wow its that fucking simple: You just got to learn from your mistakes and move on. We concluded that whoever the fuck said that is the real genius, not the fools out there that decided that making a lot of money and owning a white picket fence with a picture perfect family is success. I mean who has the right to tell others that success is this. For some people, success could mean being homeless but having 1 person there that really cares. Success could mean following your dreams and pursuing the one thing you truly love, whether it be music, school, art, or drugs. Well…maybe not drugs, but you get the idea? But I guess its just a paraxodical thought when we say life is truly that simple. At the same time it throws curve balls at us, making us feel like complete shit to the point where we lose sight of why we’re living. Its like the idea that we all worked our ass off while growing up to make good grades, do community service, run a lot of clubs, gain a lot of experience…just to get into a good college. But now that we’re here, what the fuck do we do? Work our ass off some more to get a degree and then get a job - and then work our ass off even more to get an even better job? What happens when we’re making more money than we know what to do with? What then? Go and die? Is life truly that simple?
It seems so trivial. Yet, why is it not that easy? Why do we still feel conflicted inside? Obviously, somethings wrong, or else we wouldn’t feel like giving up and committing suicide all over the place. That’s why I’ve been cursed with this freaking mentality - to prepare for the worst and hope for the best.
Do you know what happens when you call 911? You call it so that they send help right? But when you’re on the phone with them, do you understand whats going on? Whats flashing through your head? What are the people on the other end telling you to do? We’re all taught to stay on the phone and keep calm…”just keep talking to me, everything’s going to be okay.” Its the most cliche thing anyone could ever say. Okay, maybe I’m exaggerating a bit but, you get the point. You hear that all the time. Its not something new, sometimes it even feels insulting. A light bulb flicks on in your head and you think “no durh! I already knew that genius.” But when the person in front of you is dying…thats the least of your problems. If you stay on the phone with the 911 caller and follow their advice and “not do anything cause everything is going to be already” and the person in front of you stops breathing, loses consciousness and then the worst case scenario…dies. What are you going to do? Can you press the rewind button on life? “Don’t worry man, just click control + z and we’re going to be all good.”
Well. Lets add details to the situation. The person is suffering from a stroke in front of you. You call 911 and the caller tells you that everythings going to be fine, don’t do anything with to the person, just make sure he/she doesn’t further injure themselves. But you know the problem. You realize that its a stroke. Do you follow this advice and let the clot in the persons brain cease all oxygen flow resulting in an atrophied brain, causing them to lose memories, motor function, or even die? Or, do you prepare for the worst case scenario and give the patient baby aspirins to try and help the situation cause you’re 80% sure that its a stroke and you are quick enough to break up the clot so the person will be find and not lose too much. I don’t know about you, but I wouldn’t just write off the situation as “everything going to be fine” and letting life throw you in a whole other direction that you could have never accounted for and have an end result that would leave you regretting your whole life. I’d rather be proactive and try and prevent the worst case scenario, no matter how little it could be. It’s like riding a bike; we know that we’re probably not going to fall and scrape our knees or split open our heads, but we still put on a helmet and knee pads just in case. Swimmers know that when they dive, they have a chance of veering off and crashing into something hard enough to split open their skull but they still prepare and have paramedics at the ready.
I remember in the winter olympics a few years back, during the tobogan race. Nobody expected that during a trial run, an olympic athlete - someone who has been training his whole life for this sport- would get suddenly fall off his tobagan and die. Just a few months ago, a friend of a friend and a beloved athlete at UCLA died. Why? He tried to prepare for the worst case scenario. He was a little tipsy so he decided to be responsible and walk home, yet he’s no longer with us today because of a car accident. The irony is the person driving the car was sober. He was the drunk one trying to be responsible. He tried to prepare for the worst case scenario cause he didn’t think that anything was going to happen. I mean he was a little tipsy so he knew he’d be alright right? But out of the blow, fate decided to send a car his way, resulting in people all across the nation, families, friends, classmates, suffer for a loss of another wonderful person.
So don’t tell me “everythings going to be alright, its not that bad.” You can’t see the future, you can only learn from the past. So prepare for it - even if its a little extreme, cause I’d rather be safe then sorry for the rest of my life.
Today is a sad day. At least for me… well and maybe another 1,000,000 people out in the world. Why? Cause another loved one has probably passed away. Another child has become an orphan. Another family has lost their home. Another person has lost their will to live. And well me? I’m just reminded that I have lost someone near and dear to me. It hits me every time when I think of him. From birth he carried me home from the hospital. Raised me from the day I was born. Taught me everything I know today. And is still one of the most revered people in my family. He touched the lives of hundreds of people all over the world. Sounds like an exaggeration right? But the biggest thing I always forget is that he’s not alone. I always forget to think about the person I never met. Sometimes I wonder what would’ve happened if she lived to see the day I was born and raised me from square one. My poor mother once told me that all she has left in the world are her 3 children. And it makes me sad. So here’s to all those out there who mourn this day. Here’s to all those who have the strength to live another day. And most importantly here’s to the beloved - whether it be the past, present, or future.
Love you Gramps, Not a day goes by that I don’t think about you.
Seals are so fucking stupid and useless I want twelve hundred of them
some more life hacks for ya’ll
Today I Fell (in love)
I can’t believe these feelings are inside of me
Ariana Grande ft. Nathan Sykes - Almost Is Never Enought (Soundtrack Version)
Are so fragile. How they
fall to pieces.
And the hammer is
Why cant people grow
Instead they go
for the next
There must be a way to
no matter what.